Hahahahahahahahahaaaaaaa~

troublearmy: m 22 rite now~
troublearmy: kan~
^teda^ =p: HA ha HA
^teda^ =p: righhhtttt
^teda^ =p: OMG!!! tolonglah jgn perasan kamu mudaaaaa
troublearmy: eh!
troublearmy: sy masih lagi 22 okeyh!
troublearmy: :p
^teda^ =p: errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
^teda^ =p: WHY?
troublearmy: hahaha!
troublearmy: wut do u mean y???
^teda^ =p: why is that u're still 22?
troublearmy: m actually from planet nameck!
troublearmy: we grow older slower compared to human on earth~
troublearmy: :|
^teda^ =p: WOW!
^teda^ =p: that explains your maturity level
^teda^ =p: hmmmm
troublearmy: super mature u mean???
^teda^ =p: *speechless*


**troublearmy is a 23 year old male living in Malaysia.**

LOL

.....

I screamed and I cried,
But u can't see 'em tears,
Nor can u hear 'em voices ,
because u're oblivious,
to what's in my heart.

If this is love,
Why is everything so hard?

If this is love,
Why does it hurt so much?

Note-to-self

It suddenly came to my realization that I've been wayyy too strict when it comes about friendship and relationship. I made up rules and created imaginary boundaries between myself and the rest of the world. I was living in a bubble. Let's put it that way.

I used to only care for those I wish to care. I never reached out to people for anything. I used to think, I would be fine being the ignorant me. hmmph.

I was wrong. I was utterly wrong! and I would like to change that. and hopefully this is not too late.

K.thx.bye.

Tentang Kamu

You... Yes. This is about YOU!

I came home today and saw your note. and I can't help but kept smiling. ;)You know.. that silly images keep playing in my head like IMAX 3D.

You are always bubbly. So we fast became friends. Since then.. there were thousands of things that we do together. Planing our little escapada from crappy program in Intec to chasing fireworks and enjoying Mawi up close.. stalking cute guys (well, I just played along here. I have a bf. lol), making silly videos at our little room we called dorm to taking useless pictures of just about anything that happens to be funny to us. Hmm.. those were our fun times aite?

Well, of course there were times I felt like smacking you down or just choke you up. You know. Just like The Rock and Brock Lesnar in WWF (or was it called WWE now?). Esp when it comes to about cleaning up after cooking. Yeah.. that sometimes hit me a bit but what's that compared to the wonderful things you've done for me aite? I guess I could've just cook for myself but I don't want that u know. I can't. because the truth of the matter is.. I like having home-cooked meals with you. It's like having meals with a family.

Yeah. You are definitely more than just a friend. good friend? I don't know. maybe even better. you are my perfect little punching back, my gym buddy, my masseuse, my shoulder to cry on. You are almost always the first person that I whine to just about anything. You know almost everything about me. You are my best friend?

We were just teenagers when we first met and now we are grown up women. Talking about marriage and kids. haha. Talking about dirty little secrets? lol. In a few months time, we are going to graduate and God knows how our paths going to be like. I just hope by then.. we are still as close as we can be so I can be the Godmother of your children. (yes. I said children. Coz I know you're gonna marry a handsome guy so you're going to want to make babies with him.)

I know I haven't been the best kinda friend that I should have been. So I would like to apologize for the things that I've done that have hurt you. I'm sorry. ;( Also.. let's do more fun stuff together. you have only about 2 months to come peeking in my room and plan your diving on my bed. or messing around with my hair and take pictures of your creativity deeds. Just don't mess with my face now cause I have bad enough breakouts as it is. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

AMICHU tooo!!!!

ps: Yeah. ini macam love letter but eleh.. you pon penah tulis love letter to me. ahahahaa.... LOLOLOLOLOLOL

Fikir-fikir

Hari ini aku rasa macam nak tulis dalam Bahasa Malaysia. Maksud aku, aku akan cuba lah. Mungkin akan kekok sedikit. Tapi aku akan cuba.

Semenjak dua menjak ni banyak betul aku fikir. fikir itu. fikir ini. fikir-fikir macam aku presiden negara. eh, entah-entah memang benar aku akan jadi presiden negara? kau orang mana tau. masa depan aku. kau tau kah? aku sendiri pun tak tau. hehe.

Dalam banyak-banyak benda aku fikir, yang satu ini tak lepas-lepas dari ingatan. Manusia. Manusia ni banyak jenisnya. Tapi yang aku fikir kan ni tentang yang banyak muka. dan jugak yang tak ada muka. ha. sudah. macam mana ada manusia tak ada muka? mesti kau hairan kan? Sekejap banyak muka, sekejap tak ada muka. gila kah orang yang tulis laman blog ni? Mungkin juga. orang gila tak mengaku gila. kalau aku tak mengaku aku gila, itu maknanya aku gila kah? ntah. kau orang fikir lah. aku dah banyak fikirkan benda lain. yang ini aku kasi can kau orang fikir. ok?

Of broken hearts...

A conversation with some friends kept me thinking. Infidelity - who's to be blamed?

As a woman myself, I would love to put the blame on the guy. After all, he is the one who's having an affair (well, sorta). lol. But a guy friend stood up and mentioned that such temptations only natural and you can't blame it on the guy.

Guy Friend: imagine this one couple- One day, something happen to the guy and he really needs someone to talk to. But, the girl is prolly bz/ in one of her mood swings/they are in LDR and due to time differences and stuff, she is nowhere reachable. and at the same time, there's this girl who's right there before his very eyes, offering her shoulder to cry on. Then they fast become friends and before they know it, they fall in love. end of story.

Hmmm..

Then came a girl friend of mine who mentioned the fault at the 3rd person's side. Hence the term bitch, so she said.

And that got me thinking. even more. Is it the 3rd person's fault for the guy to fall in love with her? Or could it be the 1st girl's fault for not being able to be there for the guy whenever he needs her? or this is merely FATE? could be. pfftt.

Owh well, I guess the answer varies. I am a firm believer that love doesn't just fade away. Not unless you let it be.

To the guys out there: Offer your commitment only if you truly are ready to be committed. A broken glass can be easily fixed/ replaced. A broken heart is not.

To the girls: You don't want your guy to be cheating on you. So why would you want to be cheating with someone else's guy? or worse, take him away from his girl? if he can do that with you, why can't he do the same to you?

To the owners of the broken hearts: If a person doesn't love you enough, then he does not deserve your love. keep your heads up high. Better guys will come along. God only let you meet the worse so you can better appreciate the best. (^_^)V

Love is blind. That may be true. But you are not!

As I am writing this, there are ladies out there who's mending broken hearts. Whose hopes were shattered into million pieces. And naturally, some manage to bounce from the fall, many.. remain hurt. And I can only hope.. that in the future.. less and less bitches exist, fewer hearts are broken and more and more great love stories are created.

PS: This is only based on a conversation during lunch hour. What if the roles are reversed? A girl cheating on a guy? I'm not eliminating that possibility. teeheee....

Toodles~

New Houseeeee~

Hey peeps~

I figure I have to start blogging again. Just so I can get all these stupid rambles out of my head and hopefully have a better night sleep. LOL.

Lately, people around me have been discussing what they want to do after graduation. Owh well, with commencement just months away, I guess it's pretty much appropriate for the seniors to start thinking. So.... comes the big question..What do I want to do after graduation??

Truly there is only two options to this question: Start working/Go to grad school. Most friends would say that I already know what I WANT. Well, good for me I supposed? but How did I figure this out so easily?? Lemme tell you something. It is only easy for me since that's the only option I have. what I NEED is not what I want and what I WANT is definitely not what others who depends on me NEEDS. Satisfying needs and wants is not the easiest thing to do and is especially hard when you have 8 other variables that needs to be solved in the same equation. And so the solution only occurs when I have to rewire my brain to think that what I need is exactly what I want. TADAAA~ problem solved!!!!!!!! *fireworks. woot woot*

Well, that being said.... Friends, put the frown upside down and enjoy this moment when YOU is the only factor that you need to consider. Do what's best for you. I know it's only easy for me to say it but trust me, none of your decisions will affect your other variables personally. And so it is only a matter of time to convince them to accept what you will have to decide. ;) I LOVE YOU~ good luck!

p/s: To all other seniors, good luck figuring out what you'll do after graduation. MUAHAHAHHA~*evil laugh*